Some say friends are like seasons… They come and go…
Today I wonder why?
Why they come and why they would go?
I mean if you invest in a solid friendship, should it not stay around for some time?! Should it not be one of the relationships that really lasts?! Why does it feel like sometimes you have to brake up with a friend?! Or maybe you just need space…
The bond of two people or more.
A mutual understanding.
A mutual investment.
A mutual feeling.
Am I just saying what pops into my head?
I know friendship can mean different things to different people… Maar somtyds weet ek nie so mooi nie.
Or does friendship sometimes confuse you too?
I mean true friendship is when someone knows you better than yourself and takes a position in your best interests in a crisis. The kinda friendship that goes beyond just sharing time together, and it is long lasting.
But some friendships give and then it takes… then it takes more then what it gives… Is it suppose to be equal? Or should the one always give more or take more then the other? Dit maak mens mos moeg! I mean
I mean who do you think of when you want good news arrives?! Your BFF?!
The first person you want to call when you hear good news, the first person you want to tell about a special someone, the person who remembers don’t like chicken skin. I can go one and on, but I really am just trying to make sense of what I think friendship is VS what my friends think friendship is.
Alas!
I want to be the kinda friend that knows when to do the right thing and say the right things too! The kinda friend you can trust, trust with your life and your children. The kinda friend that never gets tired of listening to you or helping you.
But lately I have been asking myself, I wonder if my friends would do the same for me?!
I mean I have many friends.
Many friends with whom I spend my time, but less with whom I share my heart. This plays with my mind a little bit.
Because it is so draining. I am that friend, the one who always invests more then what I get in return. It is a sucky feeling.
I do hope that I build good, solid and everlasting relationships with not just friends but also loved ones. I also hope that they invest in me in return. I just really am not strong enough to hold onto friendships that suck.
Oops!… I said suck!
